Change Your Life Or Change Your Name

I made a decision last night. I am going to do something. I don't know exactly what yet, however small or large an impact it will have, but I've asked God to put me in the right place, and am confident that he will. Whatever it takes. 
We were watching the movie Amazing Grace, and I was so inspired, it kinda put things into perspective. Wilberforce spent fifteen years of having a deeply troubled soul because the lives of undeserving people were being sickeningly abused, murdered and exploited. Fifteen years of striving to his utmost, of utter selflessness and constant heartache trying to change things.


There is nothing new under the sun, things are much the same today. Hundreds of thousands of innocent lives are being brutally murdered and exploited for no reason except for the poor to get poorer and the rich to get richer and have more power... as if they don't have enough already. The cause is so obviously humanitarian, and it really upsets me that people don't care or even listen, just treat you like a crackpot or get mad because your different opinion actually has evidence to prove it.


 It is slightly harder to convince people though, Wilberforce only had to take people to the ships to smell the smell of death and show the thousands of signatures. There are already far more signatures than he had for our cause, but they have buried the bones, and silence the signatures through their stranglehold on the media - and thus the media's stranglehold on us - and the very perpetuators of the problem have such power in so many places. No one will support me, but I don't care anymore, I am doing this because I care about people's lives and am sick of absolute sickening gut wrenching wasteful death and suffering, and the perpetuators being the very ones whom the rest of the world sees as the good people doing us all a favour. They prefer to start with a controversial half-truth before telling us the full, uncontroversial, unpalatable truth - cut in half, beautifully packaged so nobody is too upset. Don't believe it, I beg you. 

Wilberforce did also spend months of soul searching and making sure his heart was in the right place, and i know i definitely need to do that as well. It's because of Gods amazing grace to us that we should fight for other people to share in the same hope that we have. ..so much injustice...

The man who trades freedom for security does not deserve nor will he ever receive either. – Benjamin Franklin

Every time. Every single time the night before I have a biology assessement due something awful happens. It is almost as though God is trying to get through to me, "Esther, peoples lives are more imporant than your stupid biol assignment, surely you can forsake a few marks in the light of eternity. People need your help, your ears, your prayers, I need you to do this for me." So biology, I shall settle with a C or even less, because there are more important things in life right now.

Is it a sin to be angry at things that are wrong, and for wanting others to see that wrong so that they can stop being hurt by it? Is there such a thing as righteous anger?

The world's on fire and it's more than I can handle

The more we take, the less we become

A fortune of one that means less for some.

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Daddy

(also inspired by Adam)

Dear Daddy,

Happy Father's Day! I love you heaps and heaps.  :)

I hope you liked the sunrise today, thanks for being so obedient when I woke you up at 5am! even though it was cloudy it was still very beautiful :)

I know we haven't always gotten along, but i feel that lately we are starting to understand each other heaps more and become great friends.

I love the way you will always stand for justice and truth, despite the pain and cost that it causes you. I really appreciate how you are the only one it seems who will support me in my similar passion for the truth.

It is my prayer that you will become more merciful, adopt more sons and daughters, quit smoking and continue to influence those around you like you have and that you will be blessed for that.  :)

Love you Daddy, I hope we will see many more sunrises together :)

All my love,

Esther.  xo

Reminiscing

I miss this place. Life was simple.