How sad to see

a little girl

afraid of butterflies –

I pray

she won’t grow up to see

the world

through her foolish mother’s eyes –

 I know I don't have to choose this path, but I will. We were never promised an easy ride, but I have a feeling that if I just keep going the the way I am, then an easy ride it will be. 

But I don't want a painless, simple life... I want to be broken and hurt, to know what it's like.....is that weird???

 But I will be forced to draw closer to Him, to cling to Him with every ounce of my being, and to know, as in, like, really know, that He is the only one who can satisfy. 

 I know that if I keep on with this pain-free, almost perfect imaginary life, then I will regret it at the end. I will look back and think, 'What a selfishness. When did I truly suffer? When did I truly care? I know this was happening, but chose to do nothing..'  

Now don't get me wrong, i know heaps of people who are amazing, married, family-type people who are fully devoted to God and doing amazing things for Him, but I just think that it could never be for me personally.

So this is why I must take this road, because I just could not justify burying my head in the sand when I know there are needs and corruption and absolute horrendous atrocities out there that I could be doing something about.

 But in order for me to do this, i need to put myself out there...it wont come chasing me, it is a choice I need to make, and it will bring me pain...but I will just have to accept it.
And the healing at the very end will be that much sweeter.

Do we

only seek advice

to confirm

what we

have already

decided –

If each of us fights

cruelty, injustice and greed

in our own little worlds,

perhaps there will be no need

for the next generation

to go to war –

At least we can say with certainty that May 21st is not the day that Jesus will return. The thing that outrages me is that people are seeing this stupid old man and see him as the face of Christianity. Now May 21 will pass by, and tomorrow they will straight away start abusing Christians and reject any idea of God, all because of one loser out there who gives himself the name of Christian and claims to know God and His plans for this world. What an IDIOT.

What fools we are

to miss

the importance

of laughter –

the warmth

of understanding

and the gift

of friendship

that wait for us

between the extremes

of love and loneliness –

You made me see

the wonder of tomorrow

and how foolish to regret

my yesterdays –

you taught me

how to take my deepest sorrows

and use them

to build a new today –

you told me how success

grows out of failure,

to have faith in me

and everything I do,

to live by kindness,

honesty and courage

and above all,

to my own self be true –

I thank you for giving me

a world where I belong,

where, even I who cannot sing,

can understand the song –

Oh I can't take no more
Diamonds on the floor
No more, no more, no more
Diamonds falling down

...perhaps

the gossips

need to believe

the misfortunes

of others

are preferable

to their own

boredom –

I heard them talking of their tomorrow –

beautiful people –

talking of life and love,

of war and death

and changing the world –

circles of conversation

like goldfish in a bowl

going nowhere –

I thought of yesterday

and didn’t have the heart to tell them

we were the beautiful people then –

trying to change the world –

and our circles of conversation

were like goldfish in a bowl

going nowhere…..

Yay I'm back! :)  Dived straight into Professor Ian Plimer's book Heaven and Earth :)
Anyway, a lot has happened in the past week.

What does Obama have to gain from this?
Well for starters, this year is the 10th anniversary since 9/11. The year that myself and many others were hoping to see a massive movement for 9/11 truth - people who have researched and found that 9/11 was without a doubt and inside job. Now this year belongs to Obama and their continual cover up of the truth. All you need to do is walk through the streets of New York and see the thousands of protests happening. And why dont we see this on TV even though they march right past the televison stations? Because these same people own the media and have put orders in place.

More and more people are standing up as we realise the absolute corruption, however the media controls the opinions of almost everyone. They start a panic about global warming, and everyone else panics. It has happened so many times in history, but we never learn. I have not met a person yet that does not agree that Hitler was a terrible person and was responsible for millions of innocent deaths. Perhaps there is nothing new under the sun.
Obamas popularity was increasingly decreasing, what a perfect opportunity to win back the peoples favour?
Bin Laden was a former member of the CIA, funded and trained by them.
The issue for me is not whether he is dead or not, -although that story itself has massive holes in it-, it is the fact that this alleged death is now perpetuating the 9/11 lie and furthering the agenda of the global elite, and that makes me sick.  

Farwell, my dear friends, for a week... a whole entire week!

Saw the TV today, going crazy with the breaking news of Osama Bin Laden's death. Thousands of people surrounded the white house, waving flags and cheering, as their precious Barak told them that "justice has been done."  I felt so incredibly physically sick by this. Doesnt anyone know that Bin Laden was a member of the CIA? Trained by the CIA themselves? No of course no one does, because these same people are the people that own the mass media. Now I cannot say whether or not he really is dead or not, as I have not done sufficient research as yet of his death, but the reason I could not believe one single words of Obama's speech is that his entire statement was based around the September 11 attacks, and Bin Laden being the leading cause of these attacks. I have done a crazy amount of research regarding 9/11 over the past 2 holidays, and I have come to be 100% convinced that there is no way on earth that the twin towers fell down solely from a plane driven by a terrorist. There is an incredible amount of evidence that it was controlled demolition, and in order for that to happen, the people who orchestrated this must have needed months of access to the buildings prior to 9/11. And who was in charge of security to the world trade centre? None other then George Bush's younger brother. Over 11 000 scientists have signed saying that the official report put out by the government was flawed at every possible point. That is why I do not and can not believe a single word that Obama said today. If true justice was to be done, it would be him, along with Bush, as well as the mumerous people behind them that would be dead, if true justice was to be done. But God will take care of that later, because this is so beyond what any of us could ever do.

…..people laughing, people crying,

babies born and old men dying,

the endless circle turns another turn –

Ever changing – colours blending,

no beginning – without ending –

we live and learn

forgetting what we learn –

Is it right or is it wrong for

us to sing and who’s the song for?

the endless circle turns another turn –

Is it wrong or is it right for

us to fight and what we fight for?

we live and learn –

Loving, hating, joy and sorrow,

yesterday, today, tomorrow –

the endless circle turns another turn –

Like a mist upon the mountain,

like a never-ending fountain –

We live and learn –

forgetting what we learn…..